I just wanted to write a quick post about whats going on! 
Life is rushing by at an amazing pace. Over the top stress right now for sure. Very lucky to have the people in my life that I have though to get me through it. Everyone has been totally supportive of my album and music and stuff, You might think evreything is taking a long time, but let me assure you that I want to get it right so you can hear the full effect of the songs.

One of the things I'm working on is a song with a full strings section. Under the radar though... Maybe let you hear a sneak peek soon. Another one is gunna be cool too. Not to brag, but I'm pretty awesome. Don't forget to keep visiting the website. You won't want to miss out on all the changes coming soon to the look and feel of the site.

-J.

Lyrics? Or just a state of mind.

I'm in love with a girl.

She changed my life for the better.

Gave me so much to give

a new way to live

in her arms.

I'm in love with a girl

whose smile is the god I have never prayed to.

The stars  and constellations have

NOTHING compared to the twinkle in her eye.

I'm in love with a girl

who loves me for who I am,

not what I can be sometimes, but always.

Nothing makes me happier

than when she's happy.

I'm in love with a girl

that could change the world with her words.

Her eloquence is only succeded by her grace.

Perfect to the "t" and she doesn't even know it.

I'm in love with a girl

who is on my mind all day.

Her thought embedded in every sense

of my being.

I'm in love with a girl 

who has given me the greatest gift.

She has provided me with

everything I need and could ever ask for.

I'm in love with a girl.

-Jay.

MTV? Nope.

MTV does not exist anymore. It is a name, A brand.  I have yet to see ONE valid music video, or even a show ABOUT music on that station.  With shows like "The Hills" and "CRIBS" and such, who the fuck do they think they are still calling it MTV? 

I can not STAND The Hills. These people are getting paid to live. Literally. They get paychecksto go about their normal daily lives. Do you know how stupid and mundane that is?  The economy is in the shitter, and MTV pays these people millions of dollars to drink wine and call people on their cell phones.  It makes me wish a fire would engulf Hollywood and burn like a tire yard.

Let me just start with Lauren Conrad... 

she is all over the fucking place. I don't even think she HAS an opinion of her own. All she talks about is hair and boys. If she had to make an executive decision on the spot, I'm sure a bomb would get dropped somewhere or an angel would die.

Next off... how the FUCK do they find the "VJ"s (video jockeys) for this station? They have ridiculous personalities, over the top views, and REALLY annoying voices. They talk like they are doing a children's program. Literally.  

I can't think of the last time i was sitting around flipping through the channels and thought "Hey! I could go for some MTV right now." I would sooner reach for a gun and start writing a fucking note, because I would know my life as I knew it had ended anyways. 

And what is with "Real World"????   

HOW can you call a TV SHOW  "REAL WORLD"? That isn't the real world. The real world is all the people staring at their TVs in disbelief that this made it into regular programming.  What executive thought "Hey! I got an idea! Lets throw a few sluts and a bunch of brain deadroidmonkeys in a house together and make them do stuff for money and broadcast it on TV!"

God dammit people! Wake up and watch something that MATTERS! Watch the Discovery channel or something... History TV, A&E, TLC, LIFE Network... ANYTHING. 

This Reality TV shit has to stop. I really don't know what to do with myself anymore when I pick up the TV controller. What happened to all the good TV shows? When did we start watching other people do real shit? I feel like a fucking voyeur. A pervert. Like I'm WATCHING these people's every move.

And some people get SO enthralled and into it. MTV has a "Hills After show" where they sit around and fucking talk about what they JUST watched for like a fucking HOUR!  

Seriously, folks... I can't make this shit up. They have a studio audience that sit around and do Q&A with real stars of the show, and they all talk and yammer for an hour about what they think about the show, and what Lauren was wearing, and how they shouldn't talk about such and such, and not to blow Brody Jenner.... you know what???

SHUT THE FUCK UP AND PLAY SOME MUSIC!

Do you know how many good bands are out there right now that are struggling for the chance to get noticed? Do people even bother MAKING music videos anymore other than like Usher, Ne-Yo, and Fiddy Cent? Nope. And I'll tell you why... THERE IS NO MEDIUM TO DISPLAY THEM. 

 You have a better chance marketing your SONG to a TV SHOW then to get a record deal. Yup. It's true.  Artists that got their start/boost by having their songs on a TV show: (the OC) "All American Rejects" , "Something Corporate", "Dashboard Confessional", "Imogen Heap",  "Adele"  etc etc etc... I'm just saying... Fuck reality TV because it's not reality. It's a diversion from life. A diversion from learning, and most of all... a diversion from music.

-Toast

New Drivers and Homeless People

So... imagine you are on the freeway... travelling about 100-120 km/hr  and up ahead you see a car pulled off to the shoulder... You are in the right hand lane, mind you, but this car has its hazards on, so you assume he is in some kind of trouble with his vehicular transportation device. As you begin to close on this vehicle, through the rear windshield, you notice that the car (or "deathtrap on wheels in the hands of a fucking lunatic" as we will later refer to it) is packed with 4 or 5 kids. I say "kids" because I'm an old, grumpy man, and also because they were punk fucking kids. I would assume the driver is about 16 and his passengers range from 14-16.

Anyways...  as you close on this deathtrap on wheels in the hands of a fucking lunatic, and are about to pass it, it suddenly darts out from the shoulder into your lane. Now remember... you are not far from this car at all, so you SLAM on the brakes, and instead of the lunatic in fron of you continuing to accellerate, to move his car away from you... he hears the brakes of your car squeal, SO HE HITS HIS TOO IN PANIC.

So... to bring you up to speed (no pun intended), you are now stopped behind a car full of kids that have now shit themselves, gripping your steering wheel in shock and rage, and there are cars whizzing past you at the speed of light.

What does the fucking asshole, prick, fuckhead, imbecile do? HE GETS OUT OF THE CAR TO SEE IF EVERYTHING IS OK!  

Now I'm no rocket scientist, but I'm pretty sure that if i even have the slightest common sense and driving skill, I would know not to get out of my car, while stopped in a lane on the FREEWAY. There are about 75.8 Billion things I would do before I did that. 

So this is when I turn into "Mr. Awesome Fun-to-Deal-With Guy".  I roll down my window.. poke my head out a bit and ask.. "So how is the suicide mission going today? Looks like you might succeed this time!"  *blank stare from kid*   "I suggest you get back in your car and get your friends to safety before you and your car are turned to dust by someone that doesnt have brakes as good as mine are."

So he scurries back to his drivers seat.. starts the car.. and books it.   

In conclusion... I feel that new drivers should be tested a little more rigorously. Like.. there should be a pack of bikers that follow them on their road test with chains and crowbars,  slamming on the hood and trunk while they drive.  I think after that, they would be a little more sound of mind driving in NORMAL conditions.  

Please... parents... if your kid has JUST got their license.. make sure that their IQ is higher than their shoe size before you let them use your $65,000.00 car.

-Toast